I Gave Up

I Gave Up On Anything. Everyone. Everything.
Everybody Think im The Good girl.
Shit.
Everyday I Wish I Die.
I Wish I dont have To This Shit World.
Shit Life.
Suicide.
Its Have Been part Of my Life.
If I Dont Have the strength To Fight My Self, I Wont Be Here Today.
Im Miserable
I only Will Ruin Your life With My Existence.

Boyfriend

Bismillah.


If you are my boyfriend :

• I always ask you ridiculous questions.
• I will always stare at you.
• I get sick with "sayang, anje, yunk, maman, and etc" ( alert!)
• I easily give up on relationship.
• I will be super duper sweet like sugar and the same time i will act bad.
• I have trust issue.
• I don't give a fck abt your friends.
• I extremely hate SMOKER. (i do give a fck abt this)
• I love books, give me books instead of flowers.
• I easily get headache that why i don't like flowers and perfume.
• I will have a "free time for myself"

I always right you know? Haha.

Ami---

Querido,

Shah.

Im A Girl Too

Bismillah.

its had been a wreck-week for me. one of the reason i hate school holiday - my past always chase me. its hurt me so badly tho. i can't even control myself to do so.

i just hate it. HATE IT SO MUCH.

"how come you can move on so fast?"

no i am not. i forcing myself. can you see that? im throwing you from my life. you just a roses. bloody roses with a sharp torn. i don't need you in my life. please go away.

Querido,

Shah.

One Fine Day

"With every difficulty, there is a relief..."

                                       (Al Insyirah)

Querido,

Shah.